Seeker's thoughts ...

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I want to compare against no one else but me
I want to compete against no one else but me
I want to pursue no one else but me
I want to do things for no one else but me
I want my happiness for no one else but me

I can't control no one else but me
I can't help no one else but me
I can't lead no one else but me
I can't lose against no one else but me
I can't win against no one else but me

I am accountable to no one else but me
I am dependent on no one else but me
I am here because of no one else but me
I am who I am because of no one else but me
I am no one else but me

Some questions in life don’t seem to have any answers. What it means is that the questions are wrong. All right questions have answers.

It might feel that it doesn't seem right to accuse a question of being wrong just because I can't find an answer to it. What I mean to say is that the question isn't necessarily wrong in the traditional sense but it might be asked to the wrong person, at the wrong time, at the wrong place or in the wrong frame of mind. Any of this could make a question "wrong". Not receiving an answer just means that one of the above conditions was satisfied.

There are really no wrong questions. And all questions do have answers. However hard or illogical they might sound when the answer is actually found.

Curiosity killed the cat ... and it's doing the same to me.
My urge to know everything happening around me and in the lives of the people I know is like slow poison.

Even though I know that knowing about these things is absolutely useless and doesn't make my life better or happier in any way I still wanna know all about them. Knowing these things, if anything, makes my life more "heavy" and complex.

The issue is that even though I know that this urge is worthless I have not really understood or believed in it. As a result, that urge still exists. This particular category of knowledge corrupts, not because that knowledge has a corrupting property but because I am corruptible … yet. I can see multiple incidents in my life showing me fruitlessness of this but somehow I seem to be thinking these events are incidental and hence that final act of conviction hasn't occurred … yet. It will happen and I will reach there.

It makes so much sense that the souls who know about everything and everyone are the ones who are not affected by that knowledge in any way! Only those souls deserve to know all!

Once anything becomes a habit it becomes routine and the joy in doing that thing ceases to exist. Habit leads to stagnancy. Only when one wants to go beyond the routine, the habits ... does one actually try to look beyond those. And only when one tries to look beyond those does he find a way. And only when he finds a way does he walk and reach some place beyond the routine.

Do each and every thing as if it's your first time doing that. And also do it as if you are going to do it for the last time. The first-time-feeling helps maintain your excitement and passion levels while the last-time-feeling helps one be focused, attentive and present. Interact with every person the same way. Everyone and everything should be dealt with respect, with complete attention, with awareness and each dealing will in turn be fun.